Hello,
i have never written here before but i read some of the posts.
i am victor, i gonna be 15 in december,
i live in a childrens hospital since i was 5 year old,
i will probably never leave it again,
i have a blood disease, a rare sort of cancer.
i have a boyfriend here in the hospital who is 11, he has a room on
the same floor.
we do lots of fun things together like playing on the playstation or
watching movies.
it is really cool to have a friend like him to have around.
this weekend a girl here died, i did not know her very well, but i
she came here a few times and was always very nice.
i sometimes write poems, i think it is just a way of dealing with feelings,
this weekend i wrote a new poem, it is sort of a sad one, but that is because
of what happend this weekend.
it is called 'i live', it is written in dutch, because english is not
my main language and i think you can not write poems in another then your
main language.
if there is someone who could translate it, please do, i would be happy
that more people around the world could read it.
i just want to let people know that life is worth living,
it sometimes i hard, but when you love someone, you can just set all
your problems next to you.
if there is someone who want to write me, you can on vict0r@hotmail.com
.
i will write you back.
carpe diem !
vict0r
here comes my poem
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IK LEEF
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ik leef
op de rand van
levens-
lustig
ik leef
angst en pijn verbijtend
gesteven lakens steriel en koel
ieder, alles verwijtend
bang eenzaam gevoel
ik leef
steeds de vraag -waarom
-ik- ?
steeds de vraag -wat-hoelang
-nog- ?
ik leef
gevangen, geketend
aan apparatuur, een baxter, het lot
druppels aftellend
een metronoom, een tijdsslot
ik leef
-niet meer-
los van alles, totaal verdoofd
van dit leven beroofd
in het volgende,
misschien haar op mijn hoofd ?
(victor 21 november 1998)
Posted by vict0r  to BoyWrite on November 22, 1998 at 09:47:24:
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